Chapter 2  
I had figured a fisherman needs his tools and his gear to fish for 
swordfish. I do not mean just hooks and lines either. I mean a rain 
resistant suit and liver bait too and a lot of sharp over sized hooks to
 get the big ones with, the kind that do not warp or bend, the kind that
 do not break.
I was eight years old when my dad had first taken me fishing. I am sure 
other boys my age were taught a trade. It is easy for a young boy to 
want to be a boy and play with his friends. It starts grabbing at my 
brain and hanging onto it and does not let go easily. It gets better and
 better, until finally it goes away. If fishing was originally easy, i 
am sure my mother Stacey would still be alive and not of had her heart 
attack, but she is not. I did not want my mother to die. I wanted her to
 see her grand child and the boat i had bought.
I had to have something that would pay the bills and put the food on the
 table. I would talk to my father in spirit about it. I had scratched my
 head when he did not answer. Well, Nicholas, i said,i hear you had seen
 my boat. I am sure you will have one in the after life. I might as well
 of slept the day away, but i got to make a living,i said, i have to get
 my kid back. I want this three hundred thousand dollar catch. I could 
see by the fish i was reeling in that there was a good chance i would, 
and did.
I had thought,my god,this load is a lot of money and that is what i need right now.
I had iced all of them before they had spoiled. I had cleaned them too. I
 feared the weather. Off to the dealer i said and the steer was turned 
back toward the south east. Besides, a fisherman only gets one good 
catch a year and that is during the end of his season, not until i cash 
in will it be over. I understood that well. There i was a hundred feet 
from an ice burg. My home was on the ship on the water front of Florida 
Bay. The water was fresh and the bird life always had woke me up. It lay
 on the coast beautifully there. The land was sanded until it hit 
merchants and city street asphalt. I always had a ride when i had left 
the boat. I was the first one to call a taxi if i did not have one. My 
ex wife had lived in my home on st. Nicholas Ave. It had three 
bedrooms,one bath and a master bedroom. Behind it was another condo and 
was similar to it. In the evenings and early in the morning it had fog 
from the city traffic and pedestrians had been making there morning 
jogs. Up in the Appalachian mountains would be six inches of snow fall. 
The ocean front would be seventy five degrees. The rich sand would be 
warmer and full of lots of sand castles. To a young boy it was the thing
 to do and it was the number one niche in the day. I had traveled to the
 Bermuda triangle once. I knew i would never go there again though and 
the weather there was too fatal. The people in Florida are amazing. I 
would spend years of getting to know them. After leaving out to sea, i 
would wave fair well to them. That i would call my fair well hand shake.
 Then, at sea i would look back and remember the coast. I would clean 
the deck sometimes to get my mind from thinking about it.
I had thought i was in the south already. I did not even get any sleep 
yet, up all night long, steering the steer with my sore hands.
I was a fisherman from the day my father and my mother had me,a natural 
born. I had caught every kind of fish from crab, to octopus, even 
swordfish.
As the morning had glew of the deck and had shined better. I seen it,it was money that was in my 
feature as i had went back to my childhood. It was hard to think about it. Good 
swordfish were always worth more money and they were plenty in the lower
 deck fridge. I gained six pounds since i had left Florida. If mom was 
here she would compliment me.
I am going to have to eat again soon, i thought. I never had went more 
than a day without eating before. its not healthy at all. I am so 
hungry,i said,my stomach and i feel week.
I am going to eat, i had told it. We will have tuna burgers. I cannot 
wait for them to finish cooking on the ships gas stove. It burns my 
appetite to even think about it.
I had offered my stomach a piece of sandwich bread, it did not want 
it,but it had ate it anyway. He wants burgers and they are expensive. Do
 you know what they pay for in Florida for a tuna burger? Six dollars! 
If i had three hundred thousand dollars right now i would of had one as 
soon as i had docked this boat. I need one now though.
I had over baked a tuna burger before. I knew i could not do that this 
time. I had began watching them very closely. After watching them fully 
cook, i had put them on sandwich bread i had had on board in the cabin. 
Even though i was running low on bread, i had used them anyway, i had 
ate the tuna burgers fast too. Two would be good. I had heard the moat 
of it sink to my tummy. It had made me feel fuller than a white shark 
after a hunting meal.
I set the hooks up and counted them. There was thirty five of them and 
it told me that they were all there. Some of the hooks had some bait 
left on them. If the fish would of bit them i would not of had enough 
room in the fridge for them all. I said i will make the three hundred 
thousand dollars mark,but it was not easy.
I had steered the steer all the way to the midland.
The next day i could see the Florida shores.
 Late that evening i had my buyer tally up the seasons catch. As fast as
 i could, i had helped unload the swordfish,expecting a pay check. 
Instead he had paid me with a bag of cash. If the Easter bunny himself 
laid a golden egg, gold and all, i would not of been as pleased. I had 
jumped up and down  and i grabbed the one million dollar pay day. I 
shook his hand proudly while telling him good doing business with you. 
He had showed me that the hard work pays well and you do not need a crew
 to make it rich. The next morning i was at the fifth and third bank 
cashing in my jackpot,the greatest season ever . If this was not 
spectacular! I did not intend on spending it right away. I was saving 
it, but you know how money goes. My son James is one step away from 
being back with his daddy. I have a court date today to get him back. 
She has no reason to keep him from me. I know she wont deny my custody 
of him.
I was calm, i just could not understand her actions and she was not 
right about them. The tale behind her actions was bigger than my ship 
and everything i had lost was worth just as much. I swallowed my saliva 
and sucked it up. I almost wanted to tear a dogs hair out, everyday 
saying, come on,here doggy.
Mom would of beat him with a broom. I threw them all out though. Mom was
 the greatest broom swinger alive. She had put a three inch broom sliver
 in our old yell er dog named Sprite for eating her freshly baked 
blueberry pie.
It was bad enough that he had died from it. I never heard such a death story in my life.
It was a good hour until i had got over it again. The fish livers were 
bought for bait. Nasty and slimy,our bait is,started stinking up the 
south street cab.
After the cab ride was over,i said. That should be interesting. I do not
 think the cab driver would want to give me another ride ever again. 
How is Aunt Janine? Aunt Janine was one of those wild chicks. She would be in the bars a lot.
I seen some of the hangouts she might of been in shaking her junk at the
 bartenders,but i did not check them. Thinking that they were going to 
see me in a bar knowing that i was a chimp hair from getting the custody
 back of my son, i think not. Janine could not comprehend that her 
drinking effects the whole entire family, messing around in bars. I 
would not look any further.
It wan not long now until court was in session. Every time the defence 
had favored me, they would laugh at my ex wife because she was broke and
 had no job. The custody was turned over to me.
Aunt Janine wont be seeing him for a while. She had said she wanted to 
see him badly six months ago,but where had she been, at the bar.
My dad would of torn my head off for even seeing Aunt Janine. Dad would 
of said, i do not want her to rob you too son. He knows everything Aunt 
Janine had done in the past. Dad had went back to rest in piece. He was 
dead and so imagination is his life source still in the living. He was 
here and there to me in life.
You see son,i said. He is looking down on us right now. James had got in
 the west taxi. I had joined him too. Him leaving home and out to sea 
with me. Oh, he was going to be a fisherman,just like his daddy, but her
 had never been away from his mother and his friends for more than a 
week at a time. He will used to it after a month, he is fifteen years 
old.
Once i let James play with his friend Jim because i felt bad for making 
him do more than his usual chores. I like being a nice dad. He enjoyed 
it when i was nice to him. His eyes had turned green and he gave me a 
hug. He mouthed off at me once and had drew back his voice when i had 
threatened him of his allowance. I had decided to give it to him the 
next morning however for his good behavior.
In no amount of time we were home on the boat at the docks. Then he had 
asked me about his mother. I told him she will see him soon. I got one 
of those mama boys i think.
My dad had always told me that raising a boy is not like fishing. This 
had opened a new can of worms for me. I had caught a lot fish, but not a
 boy.
There was not a thing wrong with my son. I did not have to snoop around in his room to know that.
I could not hook him and put him in the lower deck fridge with the other
 fish. He was too good for that in my eyes. Besides, he will see an 
empty locker and ask questions about it and beg me for money as well as 
sometimes give me the old sad song story.
Once i see him doing something wrong i will confront him and not until 
then. I have not seen anything yet. I had laughed and said son i love 
you boy. It had made a big difference to him that i showed him 
affection. I was happily convinced that he appreciated my affections. 
The love you plea helped him find his room,but like mine had to share a 
toilette. The news wore off as soon as he had seen the shower. Only this
 time he was happier.
I started pasteurising him again. I said, it is not much, but will have 
to do. I had thought he would be less satisfied with the bathroom. 
Nobody use my soap, James said. This had made my day. I had decided to 
sleep for a while. I had snick a tuna burger to bed with me and a piece 
of bread. I had fell asleep in some of the crumbs too. I would float 
away when i had slept and would bring back swordfish and crab legs when i
 had woken.
 I had made it alright until James had woke me up for his own tuna 
burger. The next fishing season was crabs. I began readying the cages at
 noon time. The coast was loaded with crabbing boats. I had sat and 
watched there crews ready there own ships. This year i was determined to
 get some good crab. I had needed James to help with the cages and 
the hooks. This time i had bribed him with a pay raise with training. I 
had told him if we get a good crab year that we will have an easy season
 and plenty of money.
This time is going to be different,i said. This time i know where the crabs are.
The evening had set upon us and the hooks and cages were ready and we 
were strapped in our season gear. I had tried to get nothing but the 
best. It was good gear too. My voice as the captain was brutal at times 
and had to be. I had to make sure no one gets hurt and we had a great 
season. I'm sure too many men has the authority on the water that we do.
 I would not be captain of the ship if it was not mine own.
By the time we were out on open water, i knew where we were going. My 
mind was locked in and my vision was perfectly clear. I had looked at 
our position on the water and gave James my best coordination. If i knew
 less about coordination,i said, we would of never of found a fish or a 
crab.
Why did your grandma have to die? She would of loved to see you James.
By the heavens and god were going to get crabbing this year, i know grandpas most famous spot. 
Aw, said James. You got us on an Easter egg hunt. It is just because he 
adores my work and working with me. He is almost sixteen now and he acts
 more like he is twenty two. This will put some hair on your rear,i had 
told him. I think your wonderful James. You are finally becoming a man. I
 was going to help him throw the last cage in.